TThese days I often get the feeling that I am still living in a delusion, except I do not think I'm dead. Everything is sort of "normal" except somehow it's not, like the soundtrack doesn't match the video exactly right, it's off by just a half second. I also feel like I'm missing out on a lot of important details in life, like having big blind spots or being deaf to certain frequencies. Oh well, a traumatic childhood will do that to you.
Dang that is scary! It's awfully close to cotard delusion, which from what I've read is really hard to recover from. I hope you're doing well and don't feel that way anymore.
I I felt like I was dead, a ghost traveling through a living world oof memories.
II had a really bad experience of depersonalization. It's like crossing the axis of dreams into the land of decay. There you see the nightside of everything. Where there is only shadow and emptiness. There I learned about the strangeness of being as I ascended to a peak of solitude and became stranded on the side of the road, naked and alone with nothing but the truth .
My brother says he is consistently experiencing depersonalization. It's been a few years. He thinks he will be like that for the rest of his life and so he gave up trying to get over it and just suffers through day to day existing/nonexisting.
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